:: Wednesday, October 02, 2002 ::

"God, if You're there, I wish You'd show me..." (Chris Rice)

I don't understand why no amount of trying will ever be enough. I don't understand why life is neither rational nor fair. I don't understand why a merciful God let his wrath burn against tiny babies in the Old Testament. I don't understand how a God full of lovingkindness would let (or cause?) terrible things happen to people who love Him, just to demonstrate His own glory. I don't understand why humans, created in the image of God, are so innately messed up. I don't understand how "My yoke is easy, and My burden is light" and "Take up your cross and follow Me" go together. I don't understand how we are saved by faith alone, while faith without works is dead. I don't understand how either heaven or hell equate to justice. I don't understand why the "religious" people are the most deceived and corrupted. I don't understand why we are expected to know God without being able to understand who He is. I don't understand why we have to pray. I don't understand the purpose of life. I don't understand why we shouldn't be able to understand.
So many contradictions, so many questions. I can't even express how scary it is to doubt.

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:: Bethany Bassett - 7:24 PM :: + ::